A Writer’s Journey

For the past seven years I have been working on my first book. For as long as I can remember I’ve been writing. The first short story I’ve ever written was called, “The Case of the President’s Missing Socks”, I was in the 4th grade 🙂 In my storage closet you’ll find boxes of my work, poems of all kinds, a screenplay, short stories and magazine articles I wrote for the magazine I was going to launch and still hope to, God willing. It was in college that I was inspired to actually right a book. It was after I wrote a short story about an experience I had never had yet all of my classmates assumed that I had because it read so real to them. That is when I knew I wanted to be a novelist and from that day on writing a book was my life’s goal.

I had tons of ideas but no passion for what I was writing. For years I would start a book get about half way through it and then poof, nothing would come. The Unfinished book… I became the master at it and soon I realized it was time to do something different. So I jumped back into Broadcasting, a career I pursued back in my early college days. I worked for CBS for a few years, soaking up what I could from each department at the station, but it was in those moments hanging out in the newsroom with the reporters that that longing would come back, to put fingers to keys and just…write. Then came the car accident that put me out of commission for awhile, I had to leave CBS and while leaving was tough I thought perhaps this was my time to write…so I did. I wrote about everything and nothing, I just wrote and as silly as that sounds it felt good.

Time passed by, the unfinished book theme reigned supreme in my life, I thought to myself… where am I going wrong? The answer followed late one evening… well morning… it was 1am, I couldn’t sleep, I hadn’t slept a full night in years. I had just finished watching back to back episodes of the X-Files, that was a show that kept me company on many sleepless nights, the thing with that is when its late and the whole house is quiet and its just you and the X-Files you begin to believe, that “someone else” is out there. LOL! Anyway I needed an Angel not more Aliens, so I tore myself away from Alien hunting to watch one of my favorite Televangelist deliver God’s word . He posed a question to his congregation, a question that changed my life. He asked, “What are you doing for the Kingdom of God?” For weeks this question plagued me, I remember telling myself, hey I’m a good person, I give, I tithe, I’m kind, I help those in need, I’m helping the kingdom of God. My mind and my mouth had a lot to say but my heart wasn’t convinced. Then one day I heard the Holy Spirit ask me, “What are you doing for the Kingdom of God?” and I said, “I am teaching my children about God and His Kingdom.” Then the Holy Spirit said, “Yes but you should be inspiring a nation of children.”

That’s when it hit me, my inspiration, my reason, my passion. For years I had book ideas upon book ideas but I could never complete these books because I had no vision. The bible says without vision the people perish( Proverbs 29:18 kjv). I know what you’re thinking idea, vision, its all the same, but I promise you its not. Ideas are great, everything started with an idea- a thought. The tablet I’m using began as idea, the pen behind behind my ear began as an idea, the seat that I am seated on began as an idea. The earth, the universe, you and me all began as an idea in God’s mind and heart. Vision is the force that drives you, moves you, takes you out of yourself and stepping into adventures you’d normally wouldn’t consider. Vision is what fuels you to pursue the idea. So finally after years of writing I had a vision and the courage to pursue it. The journey does not end here, there’s more. Stay tuned.

A True Change

The other day I realized that I have truly changed. This came about while I was doing laundry, I was carrying my laundry basket to my bedroom when I stubbed my toe, really hard. There was a time when something like that would happen and the four letter words would come flying out of my mouth but instead I hollered, “Glory to God.” Moments later as I was leaving my room I stubbed my toe again, the same toe and once again the words, “Glory to God” flew out of my mouth. What really sealed the deal for me was what happened an hour later. While I was cooking dinner and slicing onions I cut my finger really deep, the pain was unreal and without a single thought I screamed to the top of my lungs, “Glory to God, Hallelujah!” I realized then that when a person can praise God in the midst of pain,  God has truly transformed them and you know what I couldn’t be happier about it.

I can’t pinpoint the exact day that this heart transformation took place and I am the first to say that I am far from perfect  but somehow by no effort of my own, God placed His praise on my tongue. He changed me, made me a better me, He enriched my life with His love and His grace.

You may not be where you want to be, doing the things you desire to do most . You may be going through the worst time in your life. You may think that it’s all up to you, that  you have to be the one to make things happen but I can honestly say that all you have to do is trust God  and wait on Him. Turn to Him in prayer with your doubts, fears, your dreams and your desires because true change begins and ends with Him and because He loves you with an everlasting love He will move mountains and part seas for you. I don’t know who this simple message is for but I believe God wants you to stay encouraged you are not alone in this thing called life 🙂  so don’t give up.

I cried out to Him with my mouth; His praise was on my tongue. Psalm 66:17 NIV